“How are things with your adoption?”
I get asked this question daily and I love it!
I love it when people ask because it shows they care. They are curious and invested; wanting to stay up-to-date on where we are at. It is awesome! So, if you are one of those people that have recently asked me that question…THANK YOU!!
But, I hate to answer the question.
My answer usually goes something like this, “Oh, you know, slow and steady.”
Then under my breath I say, “But mostly just slow.”
In ten months, we have only moved ten spots (and it seems that this time frame is the most accurate). The waiting, the unknowns, and the strikes are enough for a person to completely lose their sanity. I may already be that person.
Some moments I feel desperate and other moments I am at a total peace. Our little family is such a treasure and I am trying my best to embrace these moments NOW and not lose them to discontentment.
The desperate moments aren’t pretty, though, and I really want to handle them with grace and trust.
The truth is we need a miracle from God.
We have looked into starting another program while we continue to wait on the list in Honduras. This has been a disheartening process. Every country/program/agency we look into says no because of the ‘C’ word we now have in our health file. Apparently cancer of any kind or stage automatically disqualifies us. It has been very discouraging to feel the rejection and closed doors.
At one point our agency emailed us a file of a child, we said ‘YES!!’ and then they emailed back to say we were disqualified from that country. Talk about heartbreak.
The good news so far is that the cancer doesn’t disqualify us in Honduras. The bad news is that the list simply is not moving. So, we wait and wait.
I haven’t posted for awhile, because we are still working through how we feel about all of this. I would prefer to just post good news
We have talked a little with the kids about what is happening. We have told them that at this point in order for our child to come home, God will need to make a way. We read the story of Moses and the people of Israel crossing the red sea one night during bible time. God made a way for them when it seemed like there was NO WAY. That is exactly what we need. We need God to do a miracle and make a way.
Will you pray with us for that miracle?
Will you also pray that God protects our hearts while we wait?
I have been trying to be intentional about praising God for how he has already worked in our lives. It is easy to get stuck in the place of discouragement and I don’t want to live in defeat.
The Lord your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has watched over your journey through this vast wilderness. These forty years the Lord your God has been with you, and you have not lacked anything. Deuteronomy 2:7
Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them fade from your heart as long as you live. Teach them to your children and to their children after them. Deuteronomy 4:9
I trust God will make a way, even if it looks completely different than I imagined. He has brought us to this point, he has always provided for us, and he will bring us to the next place.