Choosing to SEE by Mary Beth Chapman was a raw and real look at the Chapman’s life of love and loss.
Mary Beth had an idea of how her life would look, but God had a different picture.
She describes wanting to be in control and then marrying a free spirit, unexpected motherhood, battling depression, and resisting adoption.
God had a bigger plan and he would be the author of Mary Beth’s story.
The Chapmans went on to adopt three girls from China. They championed countless others to adopt and started Show Hope to further reach out to orphans.
Here is an excerpt from the book about the moment Mary Beth held her first daughter adopted from China.
“In that moment, time stopped. It was like God was speaking to me directly. ‘Mary Beth, you thickheaded woman, do you not understand now that this is the very way I see you? You are this orphan! I adopted you and you are Mine! I bought you for a price! Do you see how you love this baby? That’s just a faint reflection of how much I love you! You didn’t have a name, and I gave you a name. You did nothing to deserve my love, and I love you anyway. You had no hope, no future, and now you are the daughter of the King!’
I saw it. The second she was placed in my arms, I would have fought to the death to protect her. I loved her with everything inside of me.
“Do you get it now?” God was saying to me. Under the blanket, this baby was wrapped in rags. She was poor. She didn’t smell good. She was hungry. There was nothing about her that had ‘earned’ my love. But I loved her powerfully, deeply, absolutely. Period.
I got it ” (Choosing to See, pg 86)
She got it.
I got it.
And I hope you will get it.
Whether you know how the story continues or not, you should definitely read this book.
Make sure to have a box of Kleenex by your side and Pandora set to Steven Curtis Chapman. His songs ran through my head throughout the book thanks to KTIS and one of my sisters for buying me my first ever Christian cd.
Our agency sent us this song when we first applied to adopt. (They also sent us the video from the Chapmans first adoption, but I can’t find it anywhere online). Apply to adopt and they will send you one, too